It is unbelievable to think that my due date is just days away… As I write this, the countdown is down to 9 DAYS, and my journey up until now has been nothing short of a miracle.
There is so much beauty to be found in being pregnant and carrying a child inside of your own body. It is pure proof that God has His hand in every single aspect of this child’s development. From the size of a bean, to the baby we will see in a few days (if I’m not late!).
Before I continue on, I want to take a moment to note that I don’t typically share more than just recipes on my blog because I want to keep my personal life, well, personal.
But I think I would be doing a disservice to other young moms-to-be and young women not to discuss and share with you what an amazing experience it is to be pregnant and to know what the Lord is capable of forming inside of a woman’s body.
I am a young 24 years old, and am about to celebrate two years of marriage to my best friend and husband. I would be lying if I said that this baby was in our plan for our first years of marriage, but now, we would not have it any other way. When we first looked at the pregnancy test and saw that it was positive, every single emotion possible immediately raced through our veins. We were completely surprised but immediately knew that this was in God’s plan for our lives. It was and continues to be a reminder that His plans are much greater than our plans.
Once we knew this was real and was happening, we instantly took to praying for our little baby.
Our baby has been prayed for since the moment we found out almost 9 months ago. We pray for everything from their health and development to their childhood and future. My husband and I want to be able to tell our baby that we prayed for him/her since they were in my womb. Besides praying for this precious baby, we have read countless stories, sung many lullabies, played classical music, told stories, and covered them in love and conversation. We have read that a baby can hear their mommy and daddy’s voices, so we took that to heart and really have already made this baby a part of our family.
Now, I suppose it is time for me to explain how I know God loves me and knew He wanted this baby in our lives. Here’s the short summary. Back about twelve years ago, I was the passenger in a car accident with my mom. As a result of that car accident, I have suffered from chronic back pain.
Dealing with chronic pain is just that, chronic. It is something I deal with every single day of my life. It never subsides. After the accident, I have undergone surgery, countless injections, physical therapy visits, acupuncture, chiropractic sessions, back braces, spinal bootcamp courses, etc… Not to mention visiting just about every back specialist to be found. You name it, I’ve tried it.
It is because of my back issues that I never thought I would be able to carry a child for the length of pregnancy. In fact, it has always been one of my biggest and most unspoken fears since my car accident (and I was only twelve). I knew I always wanted to get married and form a family, but the daunting scare of not being capable of handling the pregnancy always terrified me.
I gave it to God, told him my fears, and placed it in His hands.
To now be just 9 days away from my due date is a miracle to me. I had to remember to cast my fears and my anxieties to God, because He cares for me. The God of the universe cares for me. I, of course, have undergone many days during pregnancy that feel simply unbearable, and I know I’m not alone in that experience either, but putting my trust in the Lord and placing my pain in His hands has been my saving grace.
To put it simply, I have felt God hold my hand through this entire pregnancy because there is no way that I could have gone through it without Him. I need Jesus in my life, not only to walk with me through my pregnancy, but always. And going through pregnancy has been a perfect reminder of that truth for me.
Now, please help me to remember this when I go into labor (which seems beyond scary to me). I recently read the following from John 16:21, which smooths my soul, “A woman, when she is in labor, has sorrow because her hour has come; But as soon as she has given birth, she no longer remembers the anguish, for joy that a child has been born into the world.” I simply can not wait for the labor to be over, and for the doctors to place our little baby boy or girl onto my chest so I can kiss him or her and let that baby know how much their mommy and daddy love them! I can not wait to meet the new member of our family who we have prepared a beautiful nursery for, talked countless hours about, but more importantly, already covered in so much love and prayer.
Back to that little squirming, kicking, energetic little sweetie that is inside my stomach. I just quickly have to recap how phenomenal pregnancy is! I have two different pregnancy apps (My Pregnancy and The Bump) that I would check on weekly that would give me updates on my babies growth and development and it truly is mind blowing! I feel as though I just sit back and relax while God is busy at work building our babies muscles, bones, nervous systems, senses, eye lashes, etc.
When I first found out I was pregnant, the baby was just the size of a poppy seed. Now, he/she is the size of a watermelon. Common, does it get any cooler than that?! I can not even fathom the work of God and how he forms this human, but I am so glad that He does! He already has plans in store for OUR baby! What an amazing Lord we serve.
Thank you for reading about my pregnancy journey, now I will get back to praying for a quick and easy labor and delivery, but most of all, a healthy little boy or girl!
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.”
We are so blessed to have such talented photographer friends over at Culton Photography who captured these shots for us to remember this special time in our lives.